For the longest time, I thought the hongbao packet at the back of the message book you made for me was just decoration; I thought it was supposed to represent me because of the little girl on the packet.
I could have gone through the entire 5 months without realising you had put a love gift for me inside! I was trying not to read it in case I felt homesick after, but today I wanted to read one of your messages. Came across the hongbao and wondered why it was there.
And lo and behold, I saw your love gift!
I didn't have a good day at the lectures earlier. The lectures were good, but there were some things which I felt I couldn't get; plus, I got a bit drowsy. And I was thinking to myself-I'm such a terrible student. And it could have just gone downhill from there.
Why make such a big deal out of it, it's just a lesson, you might ask. Perhaps it's just the way I have been conditioned all these years. Having this level of criticism within me when I felt that I didn't match up to a standard or the best.
The speaker took us through some songs at the end of the session. During which, I felt that God was just telling me that it was ok. That if I trusted in Him and worked with Him, He would work with me and ensure what He wanted me to see and comprehend.
There's such great encouragement from God, eh? That I can take His yoke upon me and learn from Him, for He is gentle and humble in heart, and I will find rest in my souls. (Matthew 11:29)
So finding the hongbao felt like God's blessing to me-you were a part of Him showing how He loves me.
