The changes, which I had wanted to be nonchalant about, became starkly apparent to me today. Those who had been my juniors six months ago were now the ones whom I had to approach to find out more about my charges, about the resources I had to use. There were no copies of certain resources for me so I had to borrow theirs.
I had been re-assigned to work with another colleague in an entirely new area of work. As I was briefed about the activities which had been planned, I was reassured several times that not very much was expected of me.
Did I feel small and insignificant ? Yes, today, I did.
I had come from a place where I had heard and received into my heart that I am the apple of His eye (Psalm 17:8) , that He has plans for me, to prosper and not to harm me (Jeremiah 29:11).
Which reality do I put my trust into? And stake my heart on?
Today, I had to relinquish and surrender the old way of defining myself.
Today, I proclaim again that You are my Maker, my Creator and from You, in You, I derive my identity.
And You say to me, come to Me, because I am your safe place. No one else can be your safe place but Me. I am fully, utterly trustworthy, dependable.
I have been to a place of physical safety, quiet and beauty and now my Lord shows me that I can be safe under the shelter of His wings.
Psalm 61:2-4 (NKJV)
From the end of the earth I will cry to You,
When my heart is overwhelmed;
Lead me to the rock that is higher than I.
3 For You have been a shelter for me,
A strong tower from the enemy.
4 I will abide in Your tabernacle forever;
I will trust in the shelter of Your wings. Selah
A strong tower from the enemy.
4 I will abide in Your tabernacle forever;
I will trust in the shelter of Your wings. Selah
